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17/06/08
22/05/08
Finally feel like blogging
Okay here goes, first of all, common test is over. Ain't going to show any pseudo ecstasy here cause i know, for a fact, that it ain't going to be exactly a decent score. I'm not going to indulge in self-pity nor self-blame here. I prefer to focus on the solution, not the problem. (heh heh nice phrase, i wonder where did i learn that from) I thought of the solution, but its all about determination and grit to implement it. Oh well, for the sake of a better life for my family and that special (arbituary) someone, there is little choice. This is especially true in this meritocratic society, assuming it is truly meritocratic in the first place.
I just went 'retail therapy' (first time in my life, mind) and i'm surprised that it actually works, albeit for a duration similar to that of an electron staying in an excited state. Why did i even attempt it in the first place? Cause i was feeling kinda down, thinking of many negative consequences of my actions, even those that are unlikely to happen, and pondering over it unnecessarily. In addition, certain aspects of my life are forming craters at exponential rates, so the pessimistic nature of me momentarily gained a foothold of my mind, displacing my optimism...
So what exactly are the components of my retail therapy? Games/Shoes/Clothes/Jewellery/Stocks/Blue Chips/Shares/Bonds/Securities/Foreign Currencies/Apartments/Land??? No... I went to buy books instead =) Books? Dood haven't you had enough of them? Obviously i didn't buy textbooks, or anything related to what i'm studying now. Okay that ain't exactly true, cause the book i bought explains how economic theories apply to our everyday life, which, in my opinion, is a good read. It explains that choices that we sometimes make may seem irrational to others at first glance, however, economists have done experiments, both laboratory and real life, to find out the relationship between the factors affecting decision making and have concluded that we can always make a rational decision, yet sometimes we are unable to execute it because, we are after all, infallible, in the sense that we make the irrational decision, not because of our inability to identify the rational one, but because of several other factors, which 'will be discussed in other chapters' (sorry i haven't exactly finished reading the book) Here's something extra they discovered as well - even rodents can be rational decision makers as well! That definitely surprised me...
Knowing that i have an emotional quotient almost congruent to that of an armchair, i bought another book that will hopefully guide me in my quest to boost it, something which i have tried repeatedly in vain... Perhaps it is my inability to conform? Perhaps it is due to my nonchalant character? That i may never know ._. But what i do know is my decreasing capabilities, in terms of making new friends, as in really good friends, like doods, lameduckies, some from cd... it just seems harder, my conversational skills seem to have devolved to that of a caveman (pun unintended) I think i need to either buy a good book on conversational skills or attend a lesson on how to converse with anyone without sounding like a desperate moron.
To hell with msn and sms. I hate the fact that whatever you intend to convey would, more often than not, be erroneously interpreted. Basic knowledge of communication - most of the message you intend to convey comes from body language. With these modern methods of communication, there is an absense of the body language, since the body isn't present in the transmission of the message. It is as if there is a huge chunk of missing words in the message. Thus through this over simplified example, you can see why traditional conversing is much more effective as a communication tool...
Okay enough of GP.
8 more days to Aristal, my last performance as a NJ Chinese Dancer. As i type these few words, a million thoughts and memories passed through my mind. However i'll reserve that for an entry at a later time and date. For now, lets enjoy the remaining days as much as we can =)
When we perform, we are at our best! Gogogo! =)
09/05/08
I must do something about the standard of gu yun after cts, MUST. Just go watch the video, you'll know what i mean.
06/05/08
darn, i meself is getting frustrated over the lack of tickets too, Aristal tickets, that is. We need MORE performance slots so that all our friends can come. If we do the math, assuming UCC can accomodate 1.5k people, and each dance group is only given 200 tickets, there would be 700 left, 400 for public sales, so... 300 for staff and VIPs i guess...
i know i know, the 2-tickets-each quota is grossly insufficient, but argh... i am trying my best to cook up a finer solution too... so please, anyone with any ideas please tell me arghhhh...
and i realize my newtonian mechanical skills has vapourized! hallelujah!
very inspired to delve into technology after watching iron man haha... hmm i should aim to get into MIT, yeah, perhaps i should aim to pass common test first...
tickets tickets...
coming up - hc dance night, etude XXXIII...
hope and patience
05/05/08
irOn man!
hooray, finally watched another movie after a loooong while... and its....irOn man! why did i emphasis on the 'O'? cause boss wang sent us 'irAn man is very nice! must go watch' HAHAHA i know its typo but still i can't stop laughing =P after i shared the joke with doods they go around telling just about everyone they know and now boss wang is after our blood hahaha
we wore our dance jackets there and i hooded myself on my way to the cinema and ek wondered if the cinema allow cult members in hahaha cause i looked like one, with the red colour and the satanic looking feel...
and i am very happy boss wang came! it was like totally unexpected and surprising haha but he watched it before so i think we should have watched something else...
after that they went je to mug and i went home cause i needed to recharge meself... in the end i woke up at 6 zzz... (not forgetting JIAHUI waking me up at 3 plus asking me about ARISTAL TICKETING when i used god knows how long to type out the comprehensive details about it in the dance blog...) ahh my beauty sleep...
about the college day performance, nothing spectacular, except for a flying drum and 2 fans dropped, which translates to me fining the offenders zzz... boss wang said i improved my 'scissors' and it is now display-worthy! hooray! now i gotta listen to boss wang and keep training it to excel beyond the display-worthy stage(160-180) to awe-inspiring! (180 degrees) The road to jaw-dropping stage (>180) is not that far off now yeah!
however i felt that the performance was far from what we hoped to achieve sigh... shan't go to details... need to work even harder for aristal...
well, i just had a very happy convo, totally made my day haha =)
hope and patience
02/05/08
IM SO HAPPI!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Its been sucha long time since my last post, been really busy (lazy). Nothing interesting nowadays, just college day practices day after day. Don't really feel meself improving much anyway =(
Common tests are looming ever closer and i still feel severely unprepared. Seems that if we failed any subjects our subjects tutor will call our parents up for 'tea'. Gosh, that would mean my parents may have to go to school for 5 'tea' sessions...
Despite the title of my post, I feel really lousy now, for being a really lousy treasurer. The dance fund never seem to have healthy surpluses since the beginning of the year... I have failed to envision that we will be spending dance fund like running taps and therefore failed to implement the monthly collection of dance fund from the moment i took this post. Assuming that i collected a modest 10 bucks a month since last july when i was given the job, we should be free from any financial worries now...
Now when the need for dance fund start to rise at such exponential rates, it would require frequent collection to settle the debts. Naturally this will cause dissent among the dancers. Hence i must make a mental note to impart this crucial knowledge that i have learnt from personal experience to my successor, whoever it may be...
Next i feel like a really lousy exco member, cause there's actually more that i can do but i just keep telling meself that that's that, and there's nothing more that can be done, giving meself excuses after excuses. Even knowing that they are excuses i'm not doing anything either thats the most troubling part
And another important mission that i was tasked to do, i must say that i've been extremely useless in that aspect. I feel nothing but shame on my inability to fulfill my task...
Whoa, no go la, college day tomorrow common test coming i still blogging here like a chee bong, zzz...
Well on a brighter note, we are nearing our goal of getting the mama's day present for our teachers! And we are going to get our dance jackets tomorrow!!! Woot woot!!! Tomorrow college day performance can take photos again! woot woot
On a sad note, i injured my vein/nerve on me right hand while practicing and it hurts when i grip/clutch/exert strength on my right hand, no go la zzz tomorrow college day performance and i had to be careless and injure meself during practice =(
Well thats bout all, been a really good day =)
Patience and Perseverance
22/03/08
wow my second day consecutive post, i must be so free...
today morning went to rgps to dance cause school venue unavailable. nice place, though we only passed by the canteen and used the multi purpose hall ._.
had a really fruitful warm up, really felt streeeeetched and ready to go =D taught daryl how to do a tour en lair (not the balletic style of course) des and i had to stand at his sides and edge closer as he do the tour so as to instigate him to make a conscious effort to keep his body straight while turning. Holy, i was bracing myself for pain... thank god he managed to learn it in the end =D hmm, me thinks he has lots of potential, for one he has a really good natural arch but he ain't trained to pointe his toes to his maximum en lair so hmm... kinda wasted, he pointes rather well on the ground though (after being reminded to turn out, knee straight, four pins face front, butt in, chest in, stand tall and pointe the whole feet not just the toes, i must admit thats a tonne of stuff to remember lol) hmm i dunno how to teach him to effectively pointe his toes in midair (without being reminded)
next boss wang continue choreographing alumni dance and due to my height i was allocated to dance in the same group as jeep's bro and jun hong cool! 3 generation of njcd dancers in a group =) the steps are damn fun (ignoring the fact that i arch my back while doing the cartwheel, and i was slower by 1 count, or the seemingly everlasting fact that i look like a chee bong executing the steps) and this is definitely my favourite item out of the three i would be performing for aristal =)
today's practice would have been much better if discipline wasn't so lacking, sure all of you can pointe fingers at the exco, i won't deny its our fault, but its not like we could have done much in that situation ._. wendy tried her best to persuade some of our batch to stop showing a bad example, but was, to much of my disgust, told that it was her duty as an SL to instill discipline instead. this is nothing personal, just trying to correct the statement. it is everyone's responsibility (esp. the EXCO, not esp. the SLs, they are the subset of the emphasis, not the focal emphasis, mind) to remind them to focus and continue practicing as it is a dance practice (did i mention that we have only 6 weeks of practices left?) we should be glad that the rgps students or anyone else for that matter, did not come to watch our practice or they might be dismayed at the level of discipline we displayed. is this the njcd that we wanna show the rest? holy, i'd be very embarrassed. sure, you may say i'm babbling all these nonsense now think i very big go enforce la, hey hey, like what wendy said, its not like we can split into 2 or something, we are in the midst of choreographing the dance dood, or practicing or diaoing. ahhhhh... i feel like i totally let whoever chose me into the exco down ._.
after the practice, we went curry wok to makan then boss wang hx and me went to jp to accompany hx to get his crisis core but in the end can't find and then they accompany me to find the easter eggy, hooray i quickly bought it, along with a meiji coco milk cause i was feeling thirsty. then we went home, while hx go get his wallet with ek. and i was totally shagged when i went home. zzz all the way now... hmm guess its time to continue mugging... muahahahahahahahahahahaha ._.
rats, tomorrow class no one to copy sian!!!! i'm so deadddddddddddd.....
physics, chemistry, maths, economics, gp, cip, etc etc my only signs of life is with dance!!! =)
blehh nothing to write le, buhbye
hope and patience